my mama sick liao..

well.. i guess the title kinda says it all again.. as usual..

worried sia.. covered her up with a blanket nicely and left a bottle of water beside her bed..

hope she can get better before bringing her to the doctor tmr bah..

what to do.. kept telling her to go today, she kept rejecting..

haihz.. susah lah wanna be anak baik..

but stil.. she's my mama and i love her hehe..

and so, imma dedicate this really old song but specially for her right now haha..

hope u all will enjoy it as well.. xD ~



Lyrics:

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend
But now I'm sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love is love
Mama I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You're my friend
Mama, I love you, Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You're my friend

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i love my mama!

haha.. really really hope she gets well soon xD ~

<3

ohaiyo mina-san ~

*go open windows dulu*

haha alright.. all brighter now! hahha.. me likey <3 ~

so anyway.. going to lowyat later..

why and what for?

good boi boi, otherwise known as me, going to buy good mommy an early birthday present with the help of his good daddy haha ~

so i do not have to worry neither about transportation nor money.. fully supported by my dad wakaka ~

but it's not like i'm not doing anything and just going together with him!

i did so much research on this early mystery birthday present and it wasn't easy!

so many brands, so many different specs, etc etc..

haha, i guess by now u all know what is it already la..

getting my beloved mama a new laptop keke ~

narrow listed down to either sony vaio or fujitsu ~

and my mama clearly stated she likes red haha..

so we'll see later..

btw, before i leave and start getting prepared, i just wanna share this two youtube clips with me starring in them one hahaha ~


this was for our ubiquitous computing assignment xD ~


and this was just for fun hahha ~

enjoy xD ~

time for me to go get ready xD ~

what's going on (09.12.09) ~

haha.. notice i placed the date in brackets for this post title..

it's simply because, i think the exact same title has been used before and also in order to be a little more organized lah i guess haha ~

so anyway.. let me just start off by saying that it's really true that life is kinda like being on a wheel.. sometimes you're up and sometimes.. you're down..

but that's just the way life is ya know? life isn't always perfect.. it's definitely not a bed of roses where you can always get what you want..

enjoy life when it's up..

chill out a little when it's down.. trust me, it'll get better haha..

so quite a lot have been happening lately..

a little bit of this..

and a little bit of that..

but as stalkeRific as i am.. it's all manageable and it's all good haha..

i did bad.. but i have learned a lot by doing so..

of the regrets you get after doing what you did.. not getting to change what you did..

which leads me to "life is best when there are no regrets".. lol yes i know it's lame..

but it's true!

so, i've identified my mistakes, regretted and it's simply time to move on..

now with everything cleared up..

i can go ahead and pursue whatever i want to pursue now ~

chasing back all the time i wasted on gaming or even worse still.. doing nothing..

coz at least, through gaming, i got to enjoy and meet just so many kinds of people..

good people that is.. which includes bal (of course), pei li, kingsley, wai men (zirconium) and just so many more which i am terribly sorry for not being able to remember your names one shot lol..

but like it matters la haha.. having your names mentioned in my blog isn't really anything to be proud off right?

if you could remember in my previous blogs, i stated very clearly that in order to become a successful man, you gotta know exactly what you want and work hard towards into achieving it...

so, so far, i've really taken time in organizing my stuff.. put games to a minimal.. learning how to swim soon and also the most important thing!

i have really limit the usage of vulgarity in my daily speeches which was once really terrible till the point, every sentence has at least one or more vulgar word lol ~

so i guess so far, that's my biggest achievement and seriously pretty happy with it..

next up, my tanker friend chin kiat has helped me signed up for this ccna networking course which would only take 2 months of my time..

totally free of charge plus being paid rm 1k per month as my "allowance" lol ~

it's by the government, to help graduates who are still currently unemployed and stuff..

and if everything goes well, i'm going to be a microsoft certified networking engineer sia.. sounds kinda cool huh?

so i guess yeah.. it's all good and who do i have to thank for all this?

first and foremost, the big guy upstairs, God. thanks for all the blessings, without you, it simply would have been impossible for me to get here..

next up, i would have to thank my very supportive mom and dad haha.. supporting me all the way with their words of wisdom..

"go for it la boy, still got time to study and learn swimming mah.. our house also not waiting for your salary to makan.."

haha roflolmao ~

last but not least.. i surely have to thank all the good people around me i call them my friends lah..

without u guys.. life would be so black and white sia lol ~

so alright.. that's all for tonight..

tomorrow? lowyat!! buying 2 laptops one shot weh haha ~

2.4 kg on one side and 2.4 kg on the other..

should be good for me.. i guess hahaha ~

alright! that's all for tonight.. good night everybody..

take care and thanks for dropping by! ~

<3

life is always about moving forward whether you like it or not..

i am dedicating this post specially for a special someone and i'm pretty sure that she will know who she is as she is reading this..

i dont mean to be mean or cruel towards anyone especially someone as decent and innocent as you.. but i'm just sorry that things simply did not work out as we had wish..

it was all true when the wishes were made but as time passed, i just realized that we are simply not meant for each other..

and i really think that a single lifestyle would best suit me, so please forgive me for being cruel and have wasted so much of your time..

i do not pray for you to get over me by just simply getting a replacement but i do pray for your happiness..

actually, i just do not know what to say anymore lah..

i've said like a million sorries even-though i know it's useless..

but yes.. i said those sorries because i really meant each and every one of them..

because it is clearly my fault and my problems that has brought us to this..

i simply do not deserve such a girlfriend like you and as a matter of fact, i simply do not deserve to have anyone to be called my lover!

maybe because i'm just bad a relationship i guess..

i guess i should just stay single for as long as i can until the day i die..

there's nothing wrong with dying single right?

haha.. anyway i really do hope that you forgive me for all the sadness that i have caused and i'm willing to accept any sort of punishment from the man upstairs, God..

for all my horrible doings..

anyway, last but not least.. i hope that we could both move on and go our separate ways to find our soon to come happiness..

until then, take care and good bye..

i just do not know what to do anymore..

i admit that i really had fun buying stuff with my friends @ pc fair and all..

i also admit that i'm really moving on really well by doing this and that..

which includes a lot of updating @ my facebook account, my blog, etc etc..

i changed my facebook password but so did she..

so what have i done wrong now?

to deserve an "i hate you" sms from her?

am i just that hateful?

i might as well just dedicate this song to her again to represent just how bad i feel about everything lah..



whatever it is that i did or whatever it is that has happened, has happened and i feel extremely terrible for what had happened..

i myself never would have thought that things would turn out this way and this is certainly not the way i have planned to end this..

maybe i could understand why you hate me.. because i hate myself too..

i hate myself so much, i wish i was never born and you of all should know best about this am i wrong?

i'm confused.. can someone please tell me what should i do?

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

she sent me a msg @ facebook saying that it's just too hard to act as if nothing had happened and it's really better if we just stop being friends and moving on..

thus, i'm dedicating this song to the two of us as a sign of official departure from each other..



lyrics:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye...

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on,
So I'm already gone

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and with the song post published.. i rest my case..

good luck to the both of us and hope we move on really well..

peace out <3 ~

PIKOM PC Fair 09' Dec day 2 ~

hmm.. where should i start huh? owh yeah, i put on the samsung shirt i won on day 1 and thought to myself "wah not bad not bad.." hahaha ~


haha, this shot was actually taken at the end of the day after reaching home from pc fair but it has the best shot of me in that shirt thanks to the perfect angle and i must admit that i look kinda good in this pic too lol ~

*something seriously wrong with uploading photos.. so gonna do this some other day bah haha..