What in the world should I do?

I know better myself that I should not be complaining about anything but the past few days have been extra hard on me

Of all my life, I have suffered particularly more these past few days

I do not have the right to complain about anything as I know that there are plenty of other people on the face of this earth suffering way more than me

I who am blessed with food and shelter really should not be saying a single word

But seriously, I really wish somebody would come into my life to save me from the troubles that I'm going through

I've made some pretty bad decisions in my life and I might just have made one I might regret for the rest of my life

I really wish there was someone I could talk to right now even though I know damn well that no amount of talking could help me

And it would only be a bother to the person who would hear what I have to say

So all I can do now is blog..

Right now, I feel so sorry for what I have done.. I feel so sorry for what my dad is about to face..

My own mother..

Why can't she just open her eyes and see how much trouble the people around her is facing due to her stubbornness?

Why is she so stubborn?

Why is she so weak to face the truth?

Why?

The only question I could ask now is Why?

Because of her, I have been living in such an abnormal life..

And she thinks that she is the one who is the saddest..

She dare think that we are the ones bullying her..

When we try our best every single day to follow and do according to what she says..

Living in darkness and fear..

I have tried every possible way possible to change this..

But there just seem like no way out at all..

God help me please..

What should I do..?